Georgina Anne Hallam

you were in hospital for a routine gallbladder removal, how wrong we got it! this was june 15th 2007.You was out that day!!! you were sent home with no after care, you was in such pain the wound was leaking this fluid, the colour of uriune,your sheets were wet through, the district nurse was called NOBODY COULD ANSWER WHAT THIS WAS.. WHY !!! you was yellow in colour not my fresh face mum anymore. couldnt eat a thing couldnt keep it down. you promised you would be better soon.. not a day went by without pain inn your face. we got you back into Kings-mill more tests, no answers. you fell & bruised your chin started to forget talk out loud blew up like a big bloon.not my mum i asked so many times was you going to die, they answered NO.. they sent you home for the bank holiday said no doctors on that weekend. Mum you pleaded with me to go out for your grandaughters birthday we pushed you inn a wheelchair. you was so poorly. you went back to K/M the last words you spoke before coughing up deep black blood was to my partner these words i will never forget. im not dying am i..andrew answered her to what we was told NO!!!then my beautiful mum fell into a coma. and died the next night/early hours 1.10am. SO MANY WORDS LEFT UNSPOKEN.. but why did that ICU nurse ask me if we wanted you to be resusitated & THAT THEY WAS TAKING YOU DOWN TO INTENSIVE CARE THAT NIGHT if they didnt know!!! YOU WERE ON THE RED GRID BELOW THE NURSES STATION,there was mouth swabs and they left youre nail varnish on !!! each visit before it was a (Must) that it was taken off as they said that they needed to see the colour of youre nails. no medication was given only peppermint water/ a sleeping tablet /cocodamol.. i read it eveyday !!! I said my goodbyes mum not knowing if you heard them, i would have sat with you all day and night if we had known. and said all the things what i wanted to say . but only you know if you heard my goodbyes I combed your hair and gently andrew took your wedding band off as you would have wanted!! you died with your pride and youth.The days ahead of me i recall so well i was arranging my bestfriends funaral.my life,my mum,we joked about these days what you wanted inn your coffin, fags and lighter, and bell on yor toe, your glasses, and bingo dabber, you got your wish...and a long letter from andrew what you meant to him. and pictures of the girls... now i have the task of clearing out your belongings,, my goodness mum you knew how to shop!!! you could open a department store LOL... but the meaning of this is to let you know i miss you and all your advise, and your hugs & being able yto read my mind you will always and forever be part of my every day god bless you mum ,till we meet again your ever loving Daughter Racheal,Andrew, boos,little Bogger(Lucy) XXXXX